I'm writing this tonight because I'm hoping you guys will say a prayer for me. I am really scared.
Today I went to the doctor for this pain I've been having. Frankly, I thought it was a hemmorhoid or something. Or a cyst. Not the kind of pain or problem I'd normally blog about.
It started hurting very slightly back in September, and over the last few weeks I realized it is getting much worse. Now it hurts almost constantly.
So I called the gynecologist and had it checked. She told me it's not a cyst or anything. It's the bone that hurts.
For the past few YEARS I've been having pain in my hip on the same side. I went to doctors, went to physical therapy, but never got an x-ray. Now I'm thinking that might have been really stupid. My hip pain never went away and has been bothering me too.
Of course I googled, and when you google hip and pelvic bone pain, horrific things come up. ONLY horrific things. I have never been more scared. Never ever. I can't eat. I keep crying. I had the x-ray tonight and then I went to Stop & Shop to get some apple juice and bread. I forgot the bread. I felt dizzy, nauseous. I keep seeing this whole thing unfold in a very bad way.
I'm hoping you guys will say a prayer for me. That it's not cancer. That's it's nothing too horrific. That it heals, whatever it is. That I can laugh at myself for being such a hypochondriac when this is all over.
Thank you. I'm going to drink beer now.
14 comments:
I'll definitely be keeping you in my prayers!
sblilly14(@)yahoo(.)com
I'm praying for you. Take care of yourself.
Kris, You are in my prayers. Thinking lots of good thoughts.
Amanda
I'll be praying for you. Take care.
Hi Kris,
I've been a lurker to your blog for probably 3 years and I relate to you in soooo many ways. I enjoy reading your posts and I wanted to tell you in a weird way you feel like family. I too am a SAHM and work part-time as a consultant. When I read your post today, I just had to post (something I normally would not do) and let you know that I am thinking of you and that you are definitely in my prayers. Stay Strong. Katherine
Thinking of you and saying a prayer for you!
Sending prayers your way...
I am praying for you and also for peace as you wait.
You have my prayers, too.
Actually, you scared me a bit, because I also have some ongoing unexplained hip pain...but I've been thinking it's bursitis or a random pinched nerve or early arthritis or something. It seems like most of the Googling I've done has led to not-pleasant diagnoses, but certainly not cancer.
Anyway, you've inspired me to go ahead and stop thinking it will go away and get it checked out.
And I will be hoping you don't have to wait long for a definitive diagnosis of something easily cured.
Now why on earth would you Google your symptoms? Never, ever Google your symptoms. I know, you couldn't help yourself.
Did I at least make you chuckle? LOL
Thinking nothing but happy thoughts for you. Maybe a little prayer, too. ;-)
And btw, I sooooo Googled my symptoms 3 years ago. Doesn't everyone?
Stay thee away from Googling symptoms! It became an obsession for me for the last few years...all the way until the other day. OK, so I still do it, which means I speak with authority -- you will scare the hell out of yourself AND convince yourself you have each and everything that comes up.
So, give me your hand.
*smack*
OK, don't it no more.
All humor aside, you have my prayers...
You betcha - praying for you right now... for restful sleep... for peace... and for you to forget what Google said :)
Google can be a dangerous thing. Sending you much love, support and prayers.
I'm saying a prayer for you that you'll find comfort in knowing that your life and your family are in God's hands. It can't be better than that!
Please keep us posted.
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