Spring Moods

Contrary to the impression I may have given in my last post, things are fine here. Good, even. My father-in-law dropped off his bicycle, and I've ridden it a few times. It's in the family room on one of those back-wheel lifts. Tonight we ate dinner at the dining room table for the first time this month, sitting around it like the Waltons, instead of being crammed along one side, with various appliances lined up on the other side. Setting the table felt great. Running my garbage disposal and getting filtered water from the spigot were nearly orgasmic. And I don't use that term lightly.

After dinner I read a bit of Fast Food Nation while Ava took her bath, then I cleaned the back of the toilet, removing a basket that had long since served its purpose. Wooh! How I love decluttering.

I often forget that the Amplification Rule applies to blogging. When I worked as a customer service rep many moons ago, I learned that sarcasm, attitude, boredom, anger, whatever emotion that comes through in your voice is amplified to the listener. The same goes for blog posts. Any time I complain here, kvetch, whine, list off the ways in which the world is not cooperating with me, I come off like, well, a whiny, kvetching complainer.

Which I'm not. Usually.

It's just that, it's spring. I've heard it's common for people to become depressed at a certain time of year. Is that true? Do you have that? Right now is my time of year. I'm not sure why, but it's persisted for long enough that I try to accept it without it becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy. I'm not depressed, really, this time around. Things are just that little bit harder than usual. Enough that I notice it.

The fog usually lifts by May or June, and looking at my calendar, I won't have time to feel blue by then. With a first communion, my wedding anniversary, three birthdays, mother's and father's days, a wedding in which I'm maid of honor, and the beginning of baseball season, I'll be too busy trying to keep my head from spinning off my shoulders.

I know I'll get through it. And I know you guys understand.